hihi peeps. Today's the first Girl guide meeting after the June hols. Well, we had to do a lot of catching up. a lot more than we thought. We had our campfire. Therefore, we couldn't complete our hw. I couldn't even do a single one. Miraculously, i did complete eng. Well, i didn't go for eng lessons on one of the days. I had SYF. Then, Mr. micheal said that he wants the hol assignment by tml. Well, i misinterpret what Gio told me. My fault. I thought he wanted to see the compo only. Therefore, i completed compo on the same day b4 his lessons. What happen was, there were a few people who didn't do. The ones that didn't do everything was only 2 people. The band members. I'm the only who did one. Hais.. Then, we were taken out. Cause we were pretty major cases. Then, Mr michael concentrated more on the band members. Then, he asked what reason I had to give. I said GG. Well, I wouldn't dare... But, i would blame it on my time management. Then, The rest told band as a reason. Then, They had Syf. I had SYF and campfire and camp as well. Well, I have everything to blame on myself. time management. Oh well, Then, he told me to stay back with the rest to complete the assignment. I didn't even bring lar.. I photocopied the question papers. Then, I manage to only complete 2 compre until 6.30. Not inclusive of summary. there was 1 compo, 4 compre. And every compre had summary. i had sad life. But, the e1 peeps had until fri to complete theirs. I had only the next day. which was wed on my case. i was ask to submit it at 7. 15 in the morning. So, it's imnpossible for me to do in the morning. I burned mid-night oil. Until 1.30. As ussual, late for duty. Every single day I'm late for duty. Hahas. It's not funny I know.

But I was thinking, how ever did I manage to survive through the entire week without breaking down? Irony isn't it? i woke up at 7 this morning. Hahas. And i wasn't late! I was so happy. hahas. But, i didn't even hear my alarm clock rang. See, I have sad life. Hais..i tink it did. It was just that I couldn't hear. I stayed up doing preparation for tml's meeting. See lar, last minute thing. But, I was pretty busy with a lot of things this week. Didn't have time to settle down. Mrs. Danapal wants to see me regarding HOD duties. Miss Q wanted to see me for walkaton. I didn't even see any of them lar.. I saw them, I talked to them. But, only briefly. Now, die die next week must see Mrs D. Cause Later the duties expire.. Then, Die liaos.. Then, by this week must complete physics assignment!!! Hais.. Cannot disappoint Mr tan. hahas. He's so charming. so humourous. hahas.

I'll up date you more on today's meeting later.. I need to bath and get things done for SYF tml!!!

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i'm done.. and just now was 8... i stopped writting at 815 like taht.. now it's 11. 55.. hahas
i polished my boots.. not nice so bu suang.. hmmm, then, my brasso turned brown.. such a weird colour. Then, started put on cloth. My entire thing went blue lar! Then, do on tissue better.. but, i had to wipe off the rest o fthe blue. Then, it was actually more shiny than last time!!!!!!!!!! omg.. and i did in 10 minutes only.. i hope it doesn't turn black tml.. hahas. in case you noe.. Some more i used some stupid brown brasso.. hahas. I tink it cannot stand heat. oh well. Then, i actually polished my boots for two hours. hahas. i was watching charm with kc as well on the phone. Hahas. My parents and my sis just came back just now. So, pratically i've been alone in the house.

Me and kc talked for 1 hour plus. Then put down cause we havent bath. Stinky! Then, continued on line. But, havent do my uni.. hahas. so, did everything. Now, he went off line ler.. cause he too tired.. my head hurts. stupid. first time the pain comes from the back more.. still got front pain.. not as bad as the back. Oh well, wad else should we talk about? Oh ya,...

Today's meeting.. It was not as well prepared. So, thigns didn't go so well. Then, we played game. And i knew i shouldn't be so close with the sec 1s. i mean, they're stepping all over the seniors head lar. no, pl and ps's head. gosh. horrible. so angry!!!!!!!!!!
i'm not the only onw who got angry because of the sec 1s. They super attitude lor. dun like. oh well, i'm going to bed to read.. and perhaps slp
omg, finally
im going to have like 8 hrs of slp!
night!

I'm so sick and tired of everything.

Campfire.
Guides.
Syf.
Family.
Assignments.
Campfire.
Guides.
Syf.
Family.
Assignments.

THere's 5 things on my head everytime. Never fail. I do not know how I'm suppose to handle everything. There's only 4 days to opening of school. 2 Days to campfire. I Don't know how i'm going to complete my hw in 2 days??? Is that possible? With Projects as well. Not only that, I even have SYF during school time. OMG. I think i'll die and break down soon. Hahas. funny how I choose to do certain things. Really funny. It's not amusing but I just felt as though my tears won't come out to release. I can't cry anymore. Even if it's on the brim of my eye, it fails to roll down my cheeks.

Sometimes, it really helps me. But, now, it doesn't want to. I Don't understand why. Even when I need someone during some of the worst times, they refuse to help me. Not really in my face refusal. But, definitely non-cooperative. Oh well, I guess I have to handle things on my own now. My parents kept emphasizing on me doing too much. Look, I'm not the only one. In fact, my friends work harder than me. And they could still maintain their other commitments. I don't understand why. WHY?! TIME MANAGEMENT. Easy to say, hard to accomplished. I can just say the factors that are affecting me. I can, but, I can never do certain things. I Have no life. damn it. I'm totally deprive of it. One day, I'll just break down one more time.

Today was perhaps one of the worse day ever. I didn't go for something. I know i'm stupid. And i'm at loss. I seriously am. I know i'm suppose to be angry with myself. But, i ask myself: is guides all about getting badges? Are we suppose to be christmas trees? I know you want to. But, is it really important. Hmmm, maybe to show off to other CCAs is your method of bringing up the name. Is that so? I see... I see now. I finally saw it. I know our main objective to bring up our name. But, there are factors that are going us. The objective of being a girl guide is to help others. I want to bring up our name but ... There are factors. there are... But, we refuse to acknowledge it as our main problem..


I'm foolish and stupid to not force myself to wake up. But, the habit is there. That I can never kick it out. Then, my main weak points drag me down as a person. I know. But, I hate. I REALLY HATE people telling me to change. I'll do it when I want to. There is a time. there is a moment. but there are so many factors hitting on me that I refuse to change for the better.

Maybe after this campfire, I would seclude myself from everyone to get my life back on track. Hais.. Tml is going to be another long day. Man, i'm so sick of the school already.

During sYF, I fall out. I couldn't take it anymore. I told myself to hang on. Since, we're going to march soon. but, After the first row did, they had to redo. I could not take it. The cool wind blew. And That triggered it all. I squad down. And a red cross help me out. Then, I went and rest. I didn't feel guilty, It's just that my empty stomach was causing me so much pain. I should have eaten my lunch. After I got back, I felt better but three pieces of oreo did not match a lunch. And I even finished a bottle of water. =( Oh well, it's ok. The trainning and all. Sameer is so cute!!!!!!!! Well, handsome actually. He's so man... hahas.. bleahs..

I'm updating because too many people are waiting for some excitement of my camp!!! hahas... I learnt a lot for the past few days. I admit that it was boring, but the lessons there that I learn will be passed down to my juniors. I thank everyone who have indeed kept my tag board lively while I was away... I know some of you miss me!!! hahas.. Some even miss my 'kanasai'. That was hilarious. Anyways, I've met a few new friends during the camp. They were all evry fun loving people that I would not forget in my guiding life.

The first day was not what I had expected. I thought we were suppose to learn practical stuffs like gadgets and outdoor cooking. Or something else. But, we were not. We had to learn theory all the way. We even learn how to organize our own campfire. I took charge of the fire wood. I know I some sort of betrayed Ellis on this. I was suppose to go proramme planning. But, I'm not those sort who just sit back and let others do. I like to lead. Then, they were pushing us to ask someone to lead the people. Well, as you know I volunteered myself for fire wood. Elle didn't really show as though she was furious with me. But, she felt betrayed I guess. Then, I wanted to learn. That's why I went to the firewood. Cause I had no more opportunity to learn. I would be the emcee, and I would have no opportunity to take care of the fire wood.

Miss J said the problem with us is that we don't like to open our mouth. The fire wood ran out. And I didn't ask for anymore. I was pretty stupid. How would I know..... Cause I guess I misinterpret what Mr. Salleh or Salim said. He say got.. But, then, I was pretty unclear what was it. So, I guess it was my fault for not asking. Dots. So, it ended up that my fire went down pretty fast. But, the fire was still burning for the end.. But, only small fire... hahas!!! Oh well, we had COH. Which was court of honour. Pretty much expected. people from the planning committee shoot me. Hahas.. They didn't really know who volunteered. So, they said the person who was in charge of fire wood should have checked whether there was anymore wood. Too bad, it's all lessons to be learnt. And not to be committed again..

One more highlight of the camp was that. I was so sick of eating!!!!!!!!! They gave us: breakfast, elevenses, dinner. Thank god we didn't have TEA and SUPPER. But, oh boy, we had a lot of stuff to eat. and we didn't even use much of our energy. It was only for our PT. and thats all.... We thought of losing weight in this camp. But, we ended up gainning.

There were some people whom I like durin gmy camp. But there was a few that I didn't really appreciate.. Hahas. too bad. Blame it on their bad attitude. and some of the people there were proud and snobbish. Not all that, some were so KEEN to lead that they tend to forget those around them... Some, I didn't even know why they were there.. I was like, if you don't like it here, get out of my way. MAN, they were so reluctant and no leadership at all!!! they were such slackers... =(

Bad for health..

Yes, these were the spars me and the BB carried. If anyone of you do not know how a spar look like, it looks like that. I don't know who was that crossing. I think it's Ellis. Irritating. Hahas. =)

Our beloved gateway!!!! Hahas. this what we're building.. Cool right? It took us 5 days to complete this. I wonder how much more longer would the real thing be.. =) die hard!!

Singapore Idol
I would like to talk about the people that participated in Singapore Idols. I didn't know that there were so little people in singapore that has talents. Singing I mean. Where are all those people. Hiding in the corner??? I mean, the people are not up to my expectations... There are only a few good ones.. I'm really looking forward to more contestants who can sing.. I'm not saying that they cant sing but, they're really horrible. Their voice was not strong enough. Too bad. There was a few.. I think that Jasmine's voice control was good. The way she slide from normal to falsetto was good. But, her voice would sustain long. Cause it was not strong. What will separate her from the rest was her voice control.

Rahimah was those bad girl look. But, when she smiled, she has that sweet look. When she went in for audition, she didn't look like that. To me, she was sweet innocent type. But, ended up, she looked like those who go clubbing. Like oh my gawd. But, if she wants to sustain her image, i suggest she doesn't smile. Hahas. Weird! Her voice was strong. But, it wasn't enough.

Hmmm, why am I giving so much comments!???? I'm not THAT GOOD. hahas. But, I think I watched American Idol cause their standard are like WOW. Serious... =)

Macdonald

In Potong Pasir's Mac, Eugenia, Elle and I were talking about our encounter with men. hahas. I mean, those like mad man on the streets or being confronted by any of them. Those were pretty hilarious but some was not so nice to talk about. I mean, we're girls, we're more prone to get more affected by the viles of men. Hahas.

Library

I actually managed to borrow some book. The stupid machine didn't want to scan my card! So, I had to wait for very long at the counter.. My fine was 23 bucks. Nice right? Hahas. Those people in fron of me was having so much problems and the person there was not very nice. She was not rude or something but nonetheless, she wasn't those welcome and smiley type. Irritating!!! Then, after I was done, I went and borrow the things and head up to the 3rd floor. Eugenia and Ellis was still reading magazine. And Ellis was telling me that my skirt was short. And Eugenia said, 'It's ok what..' Of course you think it's ok, your skirt was like mine. Hahas.

Toa Payoh

Me and Ellis went to Toa Payoh to look for Eugenia. I was like think the charity thing was like a stall or cart. So, we looked around for things that has $10 signs. And dear gawd, there were a few. Hahas. Then, I saw someone. hahas. So funny. I thought it was pretty hilarious. I USED to like him. But then, he was such a mistake. Ok, wait, who in the past was not a mistake??? But, this one was a damn big mistake. One of the fews.. Hahas. I don't like him!!! Hahas. Oh well, I was like omg, did I just saw who I tink I saw. Then, told elle, it was nose fwen. I THINK she knew who. And she was like WHERE? Then, I showed her then, she was like, 'EEEE... so ugly.' HAHAS!!! so funny!! He was with this girl. Oh well, can't be bothered.

Then, I called Eugenia. She said just walk to Mac and Mosburger there.. Ellis and I look for her. I was like thinking. There's no shop there.. Then, when I was going to called her, she turned up with Li hui... Hahas.. Then, we headed down to the library... Me and elle bought the shirt.. That cost 10 bucks.. EUgenia say I cannot wear it! I was like, I can wear it lar. Then she said oh ya. You can wear. Then, we bought 5 bucks each. Then, Eugenia said, how you going to wear? You wear one week she wear another week.. hahas. I gave the shirt to elle. I can't be bothered. Then, we headed down to the library.

Spars Collection ***BIGGEST TOPIC***

Today, at the start of my day, as I was busying chatting on line, I asked Eugenia whether I was needed when the spars were going to be transfered. She say I need to be there. Like Duh, I'll presume that Ellis needs to be there as well. Then, I asked her. She could not come. So, I was like, never mind lor. Then, I went out of my house at 1. 15. Then , I called Jennifer to confirm that she was in school. Unfortunately, SHE WAS NOT. She was at the coffee shop. I was pretty shocked. I was not that angry. I don't see the point. Then, I called Eugenia to tell her whether we're really collecting the spars today cause Jennifer' is not in school and she says that she as lazy and we could do it tomorrow. Eugenia asked me to call jennifer back to ask her to go back to school for the spars. Then, Jennifer say she don't want. She wants to go home. Man, what can I go right? So, I actually went to the coffee shop and took the guides dent kep from her.

I headed down to school. I found out that the BB has their practise at 2. I reached in school at around 30 like that. I looked around the school for Jonathan. Only found him at 50. outside the school. I think he waited for Jennifer but she was not there. So, he took me to the plce where the spars were. I thought the shutter was at the other side. Cause it was open. But, it was at the other side and it was not open. Then, we saw the auntie. We asked the auntie to open the thing for us.

Then, on the spars, there were loads of chairs on it. So, jonathan had them removed to another side. Then, we took out the spars one by one. It was pretty heavy. Then, we had diffuculities as the spars were pretty long and we had the disruption of the wall and windows. We we lucky neither the wall or the window broke. We hit the wall a few times. The sound was so loud and frightenning that sounded as though it's breaking. hahas. The sound waves travel. Then, it took us approximately 1 hour and a half to get the spars out. In the middle of doing, I called a few person for them to come down. But, none of them could. Wan Ru was in the library. So, she could not pick up the phone. Shu xian was pretty much lazy and she would take a very long time to get to school. So, I didn't even try calling her. Gwen was at Beach road with her dad. Ellis also wouldn't be able to get to school as fast. But, i called her. Then, she was pretty immune but, i can't be bothered. Then, me and jonathan carried 2 spars at first. Then, when we placed it outside the dent, he went off. I thought he deserted me onto carrying the rest of the spars by myself. Of couse he didn't, he brought one more person over..

The, Miss lee came over. She said, who gave you all the permission? I was so scared cause they were having their bagpipe practise but, they helped me out. I told myself, hai ya, at most you go up and down 20 times lor... yar, I can carry one by one.. I don't mind. Then, miss Lee allowed. Cause I bet she could see how pathetic the situation was. I mean, I was the only girl there and there was no one else..

Then, they tried carrying 4 at first... Then, it was ok.. They got pretty much ambitious as they carried 6. By the time, I already got all the 6 spars into the guides dent already.. Then, they decided to slide the thing down. So, we dragged it to the side... nearer to the feild. Then, one sec 5 senior caled me wonder woman. CRAZY. like dot.. it was only dragging two spars... but, the rocky field didn't do me any good. hahas. Then, after that, they tranferred over outside the dent.. Then, they helped me carry the spars into the guides dent as well.. So nice. Then, Jonathan say that guides owe all bb boys a drink... DOTS. then, I said thank you.. then, thank miss lee also.. Then, my junior helped me tear maskin tape. She was not a guide.. she was from soccer. She's very nice. Then. I wrote BB on the maskin tape cause Jonathan say better don't write on the spars.

They borrowed us 24 spars. Yar.. and i've touched every single one of them. And it's tiring. By that time, I was already dead meat. But, Eugenia insisted that I come to visit her.. and the journey goes on as follow upstairs...