Despair

I guess life doesn't want to be fair with us. I feel despair at what my juniors are doing to me, to us. They might not feel our difficult situation. But, all of us know it very well. I don't understand what's going on their head.
I just don't know how cruel they can get. They're ruining me in every single step they take. Why are they so intent on tearing down the wall that I've build over the years? The wall of determination. I really do not wish to give up on them. But, they're really forcing me to, forcing us to. Some of us did give up. But, I don't believe they cannot be moved. But, I think I'm about to be proved wrong.
They're so heartless, I guess. I hope that they would not hurt others like they've hurt us like this. I hope they would change before they go out to the real world. Cause if they do now, I do not know how I will find out how I fail as a senior. As a mentor, who's suppose to be teaching them the right path in life. We've tried our best. So, if we give up on you guys, I really hope you can forgive us. But, don't force us to. We really don't wish to. Not now.
We've been holding on to a hope of miracle for so long now. For months, we held on to the hope we had, the little confidence we had in you guys. However, not once did all of us thought of giving up on you guys totally. NEVER. Some might disagree and some might agree, but, some people would still held on to the faith.
However, are you going to abandon us? Are you going to make us beg on our knees? Do you want to see us break down in front of you guys? Am I willing to see this company that we're beginning to build to drop? Am I? Are you guys?

Quotes

I've got something new. Hahas. Well, I've been watching 'kim sam soon' every single day now. I'm not neglecting my other stuff though. Just doing breaks. Like these. Oh well, one part of the story was really the ending part where she was waiting for the bus. Then, at the side of the bus stop. There was these sign board. It actually said a few things:

• love like you've never hurt before
  by alfred d. suja
• dance like no one's watching
  love like you've never hurt before
  sing like nobody's listening
  work like you don't need money
  live like you're on heaven on earth
  assume today is the last day.

Then, sam soon actually said: I want to change the one part which as 'love like you've never hurt before. She wanted to change it to: 'Don't love unless you want to be hurt' Hmmm, if you remember, one of the days, my nick was something like that. =) Interesting huh?

Anyways, true, red is very glaring.. hahas..

Cheesy Lines

U know.. I was just looking through the web for love quotes for my story's poster. Yupps. I've a new story. Check it out. Do not try to criticize me. If you do, do give constructive ones. www.winglin.net/fanfic/alice6

It was a very new one for me. Well I have had other stories but this may be the best one, for the time being. Oh well, as I was saying, I saw some pick up lines. Like oh my god. Do guys do that? It's seriously very erm, how do I say it? Common? Here's some of it:

• Do u have a band aid? Cause I've just scraped my knee falling for you...
• Can I borrow a quarter? ["What for?"] ... I want to call my mom and tell her I just met the girl of my dreams.
• Are your legs tired, because you've been running through my mind all day long.
• Apart from being sexy, what do you do for a living?
• Can i get your picture to prove to all my friends that angels really do
  exist.

Yupps, guys can be really weird.. Lols.. Pretty horrifying. Fancy a guy saying that to you. I'll be like: 'Is this your idea of a pick up line? Cause its not working" It's far too cheesy. Yupps. That's the word.

However, there were some nice nice love quotes:

• Love is a many splendid thing. Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love!

That is of course the common line from Moulin Rouge. Hmmm, never seen it before? You should. One of the greatest love movie I've watched. Another one from the movie:Which is my Favourite of all!!!

• The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return.

Yupps, isn't that the nicest thing ever. It made the most impression to me at the end of the movie when the male lead sang Come what may. The nicest song!! hahas..

• "It is better to have loved and lost Than never to have loved at all." - Alfred Lord Tennyson
• "Love is something eternal, The aspect may change, But not the essence." - Vincent Van Gogh
• "No man is truly married Until he understands Every word his wife is NOT saying." - Author Unknown
• "It's not that I can't live without you, It's that I don't even want to try." - Source Unknown

Have you ever been in love? I haven't. Well, don't wish to know now. We must know our priorities. That's what my dad always say.. And obviously you know it is. Sometimes, it's hard to fulfill things that way. =) We all know it is. But we don't have a choice, do we? Life's that way. =) Why, it seems that I've become a passionate poet. Hahas. So it seems.

I'm currently waiting for my poster to be done. Working on another chapter. Hope it will turn out nice.. =) Bye guys.. =)

Chennai and China

They're gone to Chennai, India. I already miss them. It's already been 2 days. On the day that we sent them off, there was Wan Ru, Shu Xian, Eleena and Eugenia Lau. We actually started off the day by going to the Wish thing. It's an organization that grants wishes for Cancer patients. We had a party for this girl who wanted a Laptop. She draw also. We invited Catherine. Not really though. Gwen asked Catherine to come in replace for her. Catherine draws very nicely!! Hahas. I really enjoyed the day. But, I had menstrual cramps though... =)

Then, we went to Shu XIan house to eat and Slack. hahas.. then, we set off for the air port. When we reached, we didn't see Gwen and Elle. Then, like 10 minutes later, We saw Gwen, then, Ellis came. Then, Eleena and me. were pretty emotional in the car. =) We shed a tear or two. But, when we reached there, I was feeling damn stable. Eleena was still shaky. Shu xian, wan ru and Eugenia was trying to get away from both of us. In case, they get affected as well. Then, Ellis went over and talk to her brothers.

Then, I went over to her and asked her what she said to her bros. She told them to take care. Ok, when she said take care, I do not know what came over me, but, I started sobbing real hard. And burst into tears. Loads of them. I could feel my entire face sour. =( *sniff* *sniff* Then, I went over to them. Eleena started crying also. =( Hais.. I guess my face had that look of just finish crying for the entire time. cause people looked at me. EVen Miss Suan tell me don't look like that unless I have running nose. LOLS. Oh well, it wasn't a pretty sight.

Then, they left. We kept saying goodbyes... Then, we were pretty much the giggling group. We did our taps before they went in. =( Hais.. They were scolded by the teachers a few times.. cause they're the slowest. Hahas.. =) Such memories we shared..

This coming week, Shu Xian and wan ru is leaving.. =( hais.. then, it will be Eugenia, Eleena and me. Eugenia is havin Exams.. so, I do not know whether she'll be a common. But, mi and eleena would have to do a lot of work.. =( hais.. Miss chua, please have mercy on us.. =)

Day out with Jasmine

Heir heir heir.. Jasmine asked mi to change my blog skin. She said it's been so long. Hahas.. Oh well, it's perfectly fine to me. Not only that, she mentioned that Green and Grey doesn't match. LOLS. Boy oh boy, she sure talk a lot today. JKJK. Hmmm, we caught up on things. Talked for the entire day. Started off from Hougang. We then rushed to The Cathay. We got the movie tickets. Well, I treat her. However I was pretty lucky. I only paid $6.50. It was because Celest gave me her voucher. So nice!! Thanks darling. She wasn't free today. If not, she would had headed down herself.

Me and Jas were fighting on what to get. She wanted popcorn, I wanted Nachos. =( Then, she went to the toilet. So, I had a chance to order what I want. But, I thought to myself, be selfless for once. It's not like you go out with her everyday. LOLS. Then, I bought th normal combo which was the popcorn. Then, she asked me why I didn't buy the nachos combo instead. Well, so much for sacrificing. =(

The Grudge 2 is nice. However, the bad thing is that there is too much climax... =( Not so good either. You don't even have a part to rest a while. There had been too much scene whereby the grudge would appear. Unfortunately, we sat beside this group of CHILDREN. They're so immature. I swear I was so tempted to just throw my popcorn at them. The guy beside me kept telling them about they story line. A few seats away, two girls sat together. EVERY SINGLE SCENE that involves the Grudge, they will SCREAM. Bloody hell irritating. =( I mean, it's not as if the cinema belong to you. HELLO!! Then, Jasmine beside me scolded the word 'fuck' like 3 times. Ppl, dun curse that in front of me. I use to do it. But, it's a 'no-no' for me now. Not good..

And mind you, they screams are not soft... It's super screechy and LOUD. EEEKK.

Rating for the movie. 3.5 stars. Ok lar. I still like Shutter best.

After that, we headed down to PS to eat pizza hut. Jas ordered the bake rice with curry. It was super spicy. Well, I ordered the BBQ chicken. I ate two pieces and Jas was there tearing. So, we switched. I ate the bake rice for her. It was spicy for me. We asked for 2 ice water. She thought that she was going to need it. Well, I do. It was always not enough for me. Then, she didn't drink it. And I ended up drinking 3 cups AGAIN. Well, thats the good thing when eating with me. =) But, I'm getting fatter. =(

On the way to Sengkang, I told her about my singing competition. You know, I can really be forgetful to whom I told what to. My memory's failing me, it seems. She was told by yikloong. Hai yo. Obviously she felt hurt that I didn't tell her. But, we were far apart that time. we were always so busy. =( She with her CO. and me with my GUIDES. =(

Oh well, Then, we went to Compass. LIBRARY. I borrowed 4 books, But I only read 3 and half.. hahas. The other book wasn't so interesting. So, I threw it off half way. Then, I borrowed 3 more books. We then went and eat at the cafe. I drank Mango-Madness and Jas drank cookies and cream. We then shared a new york cheese cake. Hahas. The thing change some how. There was lesser Cheese this time. Jas wasn't too happy about it.. hahas..

Then, we went to Popular and thats when she told me that she was the vice-chair for CO. Bloody hell . Oh well, we bought full scap paper. Glue and pen. Then, we headed to her house. She gave me a pencil.. hahas.. Wan xuan, I can return u yours le.. hahas. I stayed until 9 to watch the superstar. hahas. =)

I headed home and bath. Hahas. Then, Gwen reminded me to see miss queck tml. SIAN!!!! Hais.. but, we drag for super long already. So, die die also must see her tml. Wish me luck. And she said I didn't pay for my cookies. Goodness, I did lor... argh!!! When gwen told me that, I was fuming with anger. Bloody hell.. =( I may sound a little mad. But, not at you, dun worry darling. Hahas.

See yar around..

Heritage Trail - Memorial Hall Way

However, I would like to thank who ever those were involve to make this entire event a success. To the sec 3s who had involved themselves:
x Ellis
x Eleena
x Felicia
x Gwendaline
x Haniza
x Shu Xian
x Wan Ru

And this are the sweets are chocolates that we got at the end of the day.. hahas. See the Kit Kat it's from Kingfisher.. =) Then, snickers is from Ellis. Dun noe where she get one.. Then, Toblerone. Hahas. Thats from Sparrow that me and gwen took care of.. =)

Dove:
-Sarah, Eileen, Januavi, Joy, Devi and Melissa.

Flowerpecker:
- Shiyva, Hui Ling, Melinda, Si Ying, and Janaki.

Kingfisher:
- Syazwani, Kothai, Rajes, Aish, Nurul, Michelle and Durga.

Sparrow:
- Wan Zhen, Ru Yi, Eunice, Clarice and Rong Yong.

Swallow:
- Merlyn, Jia Wei and Melissa Oh.

And not forgetting the teachers Involve!!! Which is Mrs Too. and Miss Chua.. =)

Heritage Trail.

we today went to Girl Guides Heritage Trail. Hahas. So cool right.. We were not allowed to go with our own patrol. So, I had to join other people. And I ended up with Gwen and Sparrow.

A very enjoyable experience. However, some of us should have went with Eleena and Felicia. It was because both of them do not know the route. Me and eleena actually went the first trial. But, I was pretty ok with the route. Somehow, eleena was unable to figure out the route. So, they actually got lost. =( They were suppose to go little India. But somehow, they ended up in Bugis.
Well, we had to take some photos here and there. Well, I have the Dove ones with me. Cause i sacrificed my camera to wan ru. Hahas. nvm. I shall post some of them up.

This is the autograph book. I made them sign the thing. Hahas. It was at the archaelogical Dig. It was below the Keramat. We didn't really take any picture at the Keramat. Well, It was a sacred place.





This is the archaelogical dig. It wasn't really done yet. hahas.








And for those who didn't get to see the thong chai medical centre's toilet. hahas.

Kingfisher
See those two idiots in the picture. JKJK. Hahas. They're obviously not in my patrol!!! Hahas.. =) Well done Kingfisher!!!

Sparrow

And obviously those two idiots are also not in Sparrow.. hahas. =) Well done to you too!

Since I didn't manage to take Eleena's group photo, I decided to only put up Kingfisher and Sparrow.

Not only that, I couldn't reisist a photo with my own Patrol.. hahas. =)