Suffocating slightly...

It's not easy to be me..
Wish that I could fly..
But I fall upon my knees..

I'm finally suffocating.
I wasn't for the past few days.
But I finally am.
The feelings not so great.

I don't feel like waking up tomorrow.
It dreads to wake up from my bed.
It would mean doom.

Now, I really ask. Are we really going to remain the famous 5?
Are we?
It would be pretty contradicting if someone were to say yes.

Its a depressing thought I suppose.
I finally feel tired.
Am I going to lead my life like this?
is this going to continue?

People say I must be strong.
However, am I strong enough to face the ordeals the next day.
Am I going to dread my job every single day.
With the mindset of not letting anyone know what I'm doing at hm.
Which is a secrete thing to do.

I wonder how I even went through things last time.
Now, my senior is not happy with things.
HEY, let me tell you something.
Try doing all the planning we're doing right now.
See whether you're VERY FREE OR SOMETHING>

and what am i BUSY WITH?
LET ME TELL U. IM BUSY WITH MY BUSY LIFE.
GOT IT? SO DONT ASK US TO DO SOMETHING THAT MIGHT NOT BE POSSIBLE>
BE GRATEFUL AND DUN ASK FOR MORE>
LETS SEE HOW MY BATCH FAREWELL IS GOING TO BE HUH